I'm a mother of two beautiful girls. I think Sarcasm is a spiritual gift, even Jesus was sarcastic. I have no patience for people who are not real. I'm a Christian, but I hate how so many Christians have made that a bad word.
My goal is to be a strong woman who loves God and encourages other women to do the same.
I love upcycling and building things from repurposed items and reclaimed wood.
We as women don't always see ourselves for the amazing women we are. It took me a lot of pain and hard work to find out who I am and what I am passionate about. I want other women to find their passions and not let others hold them back. Maybe some of my posts and projects that I will post will encourage other women to be who God wants them to be.
I have been married for 13 years and I will admit it has not been easy. I love my husband and I love our two girls, but for years I let them be my world and I was just there to serve them. I had no identity other than Ace's wife or Lennon and McCartney's mother. My husband is in radio and I would go help him at events before we had the girls and I actually had a name tag made that read "Ace's Wife" I didn't bother to ask for one that said Bethany because no one knew who that was, not even me.
I'm a Christian and early in our marriage as we moved around a lot and found churches, I would see the other Christian women and think I was supposed to look, talk and dress like them. I rarely bought myself new clothes, but when I did, I didn't know what I liked so I had to take someone with me to help pick out the "right" clothes. Sweater sets and capri pants if I was with friends and big t-shirt and jeans with I was with my husband. I was hiding who I was behind all the supposed to's and should be's.
It took a big hit to my marriage for me to even see that this was happening. My husband and I nearly divorced about three years ago. I had been a stay home mom for 6 years. We had moved so much with my husbands job and I had been home so long that my teaching license had expired. As I thought about my life as a divorced woman, I was terrified, first because I didn't want to be a divorced woman and second because I didn't know how to be anyone besides Ace's wife and Lennon and McCartney's mom. What could I do besides take care of the house and children? I ended up getting a job at a Day care because it was all I knew, no one else would hire me because I didn't have experience as anything else.
We ended up reconciling, but I still didn't know who I was. I knew that I enjoyed photography, but all I did was take pictures of my kids. I knew I liked to write, but all I did was blog about my family. It is three years later and I still ask myself who Bethany is. I have changed to dressing like I want to instead of how I think everyone thinks I should, but I have not picked up my camera except to photograph my kids. My husband and I wrote a workbook on marriage. Can you guess what I wrote about? It was about being a wife :)
I do want to have an identity and I will admit that I am closer to being Bethany than I was three years ago, but I still wonder what people see when they look at me. Do they see Bethany or do they see Ace's wife and Lennon and McCartney's mom? And if they do see Bethany, who do they think she is? Who do I think she is?